Panic!! Panic!!! Oh wait..... (caution, long blog)

Man, I have a lot of things to blog about, but I always forget when I sit down to write them. Except this one, of course. As you may have gathered from my previous post, I have been getting a little squirrelly about my job and the responsibilities and all that fun stuff, like the fact that you can't count on people to do what they tell you they're going to do. Well, over the weekend I decided I was going to start seeking other employment, and that I would let my boss know sometime this week, but I wasn't sure when. Yesterday she came into my office to drop off a candle she'd gotten me while she was on vacation (no, this wasn't favoritism, she brought something back for all of us) and asked how things were going. So I decided to tell her. Now, don't worry guys, I didn't do anything stupid, I just calmly let her know that I didn't feel that I was right for the position and that I didn't want to continue potentially costing the company money, and that I would like to start looking for another position. She said that was fine, she understood and actually asked if there were any of the positions we currently have that I would be interested in applying for (I can generate revenue in other ways, too). We agreed that we would start looking for my replacement and that I would start looking for another position.

And then I went home for lunch.

My internal monologue went something like this: "Wow, that went really well! I'm glad she didn't get upset or anything. Hmm, I wonder where I'll start lookingWHAT HAVE I DONE?!?!?! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?!?!" Yeah, the prospect of looking for a new job, while exciting in theory, isn't actually something I enjoy viewing. The job market here in the ol' Valley inn't so hot right now, and my skills are, well, not mind-blowing, although I do have that shiny BA. So, I wavered between "glad it went well" and "ACK!!" and went back to work. About thirty minutes after I got back, my boss came in again. She was interviewing my replacement in about an hour and wanted to talk to me about some things, things like, would I like to, instead of having to find another position somewhere and lose my health insurance, perhaps just switch into the accounting department? Now here, my dear friends, is an example of God working in mysterious ways. I will spell them out for you.

1. I got this job in September, two months before Joel broke up with me, sending my already out of control mood swings into orbit (not his fault, since I think almost any kind of stress would have done it).
2. As of January 1st, I got health insurance, which allowed me to go to the doctor and find out that I have a hormonal imbalance (have I mentioned this yet? It's genetic. I'm thrilled. Well, actually, I kinda am, because it means I'm not just crazy.) and start getting treatment (oh I'll have to post a picture some day. I use a topical cream on the inside of my arm for about a week and it's in a syringe, so I look like I'm shooting up!). This is the first time in, oh, ten years that I've had the kind of medical coverage I would need to diagnose and treat this problem.
3. About a week ago, our accountant announced that he was hoping to retire and we started looking for his replacement.
4. Yesterday, the guy who has been doing payroll announced that he would like to take over the accountant's position, leaving the payroll position open, which is the one I was offered.
5. It wasn't until the last several weeks that I've been feeling really unhappy with being a staffing coordinator, which is good, because if I would have decided this sooner, I would have given notice and been out of there before the accountant could retire, opening up the position I'm going to start training for!!!!

I mean, isn't that just amazing???? And I know this is all prayer. I've been asking people to pray about this for a while now, and the way things just fell into place was, in a word, providential! So, I get to stay with a company I like, keep my health insurance, and start working in an area that has interested me for a while, and when I get good enough, I'll get to start learning the rest of the bookkeeping. Anyway, so, yeah, I realize it's a ridiculously long blog, but I just had to share. Yet another example of God watching out for me when I'm not looking!

PS to self: About those other blog topics...... think Vietnam, " ", and the library.